Lament- a passionate expression of grief or sorrow.
I have been dealing with a lot lately and have had to learn an important lesson. Lamenting to God is okay. Crying out to him and telling him how you really feel is totally okay. In fact. It's encouraged.
David and the other psalmists lamented. Job lamented. Jesus. He lamented.
So why do we feel like it's not okay? We act like we have to hide our real feelings from God and act like we should only give him our praise and keep the rest of ourselves to ourselves.
I think it's because of the world we live in. I have a question: how many of you share your true feelings to the people around you?
If your like me... Probably no. I have like 3 people maybe that I open up to. I've always been like that. Super selective to who I share my heart to. And sometimes i misjudge who is a good steward and I get burned.
But. That's what I'm learning. God isn't a person. He won't burn me and turn his back on me. He loves me and cherishes me. All of me.
So I am now trying to find words to lament to God about how I feel. Telling him I am tired and frustrated. And then when I can't find the words, I just sit and trust that God knows what my tears and my feelings mean and that he is holding me. And that he has a plan that I cannot see.
I'm trying to be okay with lamenting. But I also won't live there. I will lament. Then I will praise. I will cry. Then through tears I will smile knowing that God has a plan and a purpose and that he has never let me down before.
David lamented. Job lamented. Moses lamented. Jesus lamented. So I will lament.
But David praised. Job praised. Moses praises. Jesus praised. So I will praise.
Life is a learning process, but the teacher is good and someday I plan to hear ,"well done my good and faithful servant." And have no more tears. No more pain.
So I will continue this marathon that is full of little races and sprints.
I will lament. I will praise. I will get through this season. God is good.
-Lexie.
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