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Did you know that there are still slaves in the world? No? Well there are over 27 million.
Do you know what human trafficking is?
Did you know that these things are happening in the United States as well as other countries?
 Men. Women. Children.  Any of us could have been born in that place. We are fortunate, so we sould spread the word and make this stop. This breaks my heart more than anything else.
 Join with me and other freedom fighters and get educated about it at the links at the end of this blog post and spread the news around.  The more people know, the closer we can be to freedom for these amazing beautiful people.



http://enditmovement.com/

http://www.thea21campaign.org/

Opening Hearts...

Sometimes when you open your heart, you get hurt. Opening your heart to others is giving them complete permission to walk all over it, then get in a truck and run it over. It is really scary. It has potential to hurt. It is a lot. It is terrifying. 

I have this problem where I don't let many people in because I have been hurt a lot. It feels like every time I let my guard down, I get broken. Never has failed in the past. I pour my heart into some, and they sometimes just turn their backs on me. It happens. That is life.  

But does that mean I stop trying?

Does that mean I give up trying to shake it off and get up and trust and love people again?

Does it mean I stop caring and stop praying?

Does it mean that I stop looking for God's potential in people? 

Does it mean I stop trying to live like Jesus?

No. It doesn't.

This world hurt. It has an enemy that is waiting around to steal, kill and destroy(John 10:10) all hope and faith. Every ounce of love and peace. Every part of happiness, every bit of joy. Makes beauty into brokenness.  

But I have a Heavenly Father who makes the broken into beautiful. 

Jeremiah 29:11-14a:

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you,” declares the Lord..."

Yes that could just pertain to my life goals and to when I need God, or it could pertain to my daily life. He has plans for me. He is always listening to me as I seek him, and he has planned every person who walked into my life. Every single person who was put into my path for whatever reason. He planned some to help me grow, some to make me stronger, some to help me heal, and some to comfort me when I needed them. 

I truly trust in God. I need to start trusting that He has a plan for me with those around me. He has that for all of us. 

I am choosing to believe that God doesn't makes mistakes. I am choosing to pray for God to put me in the places and around the people that he needs me to be with, regardless of the end result. His plan is perfect. He is only a prayer away; and as I seek His will, he will heal me. 

Hopefully this will be an encouragement to someone, if anyone actually reads this :)

This is just my heart in a digital journal. 

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Lets get real for a bit

I am going to be brutally honest here. I am going to pour out my heart a bit and that isn't something I do. I don't share with just anyone. I don't let others in a lot of times.  But here goes...

I am dealing with fear. 

All types of fear.

Fear of inadequacy as I sit in classes that are supposed to be a part of my future career. 

Fear of being alone because I can't find the right person for me. 

Fear of writing songs and people rejecting them. 

Fear of using my gifts at times because others around me are so talented. 

Fear of loneliness. Just in general. 

Fear of my anxiety becoming unbearable.

Fear of just not being good enough in general. 

 I know I can't handle everything on my own, that some of these are irrational, and that I can't be perfect and calm all the time, but man would that be easier. 

I have fears. But so does everyone else around me. Sometimes we forget that. 

The biggest lie Satan can tell us is that we are alone. That is exactly where he wants us. 

I say all this and am being transparent to just hopefully show someone that they aren't the only one. 

"For God did not give us a Spirit of fear but of power and sound mind" 2 Timothy 1:7

God is constant. He is with us so we are never alone and don't have to be fearful. The devil waits around like a prowling lion waiting to devour.( 1 Peter 5:8). He waits for the perfect moments to whisper in our ears that we aren't good enough. 

Can I tell you that you are good enough? 

You are enough. 

You are perfect. 

You are more than adequate. 

You are loved by an everlasting God. 

Unconditionally. 

All sorts of people in the bible experienced fear. David had to be scared before fighting Goliath. Moses was scared to lead the people out of Egypt. Timothy was fearful he was too young. Esther had to be scared she would be killed. Paul was in prison for crying out loud. That's really scary. 

So as another week I almost over, I am resting in the peace that I am not alone. I am covered in Gods protection and grace and mercy. He will qualify me. He will direct my paths. I don't have to control this life I have. I just have to give it up to a God who has never let me down before. 

"In God whose word I praise. In God I trust I will not be afraid. What can mortal men do to Me?" Psalm 56:4