You see in the past nine months I have learned that God cares for even the little things in my life, because he cares for me. I firmly believe I would not have gotten any grade I have gotten or completed anything or been able to accomplish all I have in the past two semesters without God's help and his constant hand upon me.
He's always been faithful.
A year ago God spoke the words of New Comfort to me.
Over the past nine months I have left home, been placed in so many uncomfortable situations, shared a room for the first time, broken up with someone that was not meant to be in my life, changed my major, made new friends, learned that not all girls will try to screw me over like most in the past, and have learned that when I am down to nothing and feel alone...God is there and He is all I need.
I heard this quote once, it said, " I am fiercely independent,but terrified of being alone."
I am this way. I am a really independent person and responsible to a fault sometimes, but I have this fear of rejection and being alone. God really showed this to me this year, because he took away all my comfort zones so only He was there.
I am so thankful for that. I learned to sing a new song to my Lord that I would have never known otherwise. I cried out to God so many times this year in loneliness though surrounded by a sea of people because I just felt so overwhelmed and I needed some of my comfort zones.
And you know what happened?
God became my comfort zone. His arms embraced me. His hands held me. He held me under His wings. And to top it all off be defined my purpose in life.
His grace is made perfect in my weakness.
HE SHOWED UP. Without fail.
I am so thankful for this past year as it comes to a close, though it was the hardest season of my life because it taught me just how deeply God cares for me and it also helped show me the priorities in me life like family, worship, the great commission, and how a kind word is worth more than gold.
So now God is speaking new words to me. New Season.
I looked up verses on new seasons and this is what I found:
“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive
it? I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah
43:18-19
“In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord
determines his steps.” Proverbs 16:9
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your
own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths
straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6
“The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who
saves. He will take great delight in
you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with
singing.” Zephaniah 3:17
“May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your
plans succeed.” Psalm 20:4
“Look at the nations and watch— and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days
that you would not believe, even if you were told.” Habakkuk 1:5
So as I head into a new season in a new place that is closer to family, I look forward to how God will help me, test me, love me and show me His glory over and over. I choose to trust in him. I may not understand exactly what will happen and how it will all workout. But I will be okay.
"From victory over the grave. To victory over this day, you reign high and lifted up. Seated on your throne, countless glory you've shown over us. Worthy is your name. Jehovah Shammah. Ever present God. You never leave me alone, in darkness your my rock. This victory is yours, as are all the ones before. The battle is won in your name... For Forever You Reign."
In Christ,
Lexie
