Do I Know Him?

Its been a long time since I posted on here but it is never too late to start again so here goes nothing. I have been asking myself a question lately…

Who is God?

That is a question that is super easy to answer for me when I am having a good day. He is the one who made the sun shine and the birds sing. He is the one who puts the air in my lungs and who is so good to me. He is the one who makes my life easy and grand and beautiful.

Knowing that God is good and that is who he is is really easy when life is going great.

But who is God when I am not having a good day?

That is a lot harder.

Lately I have had a lot of mixed days. I am not going to get into too much detail but life has been anything but easy for me emotionally, financially, and spiritually and I have had so many “why God?” moments. I have struggled, prayed, and cried a lot lately… there are tear spots on my piano as I write this left from yesterday that I need to clean off (Mascara shows on white keys…and is a pain to get off).

Now I do not tell you this to say “aww poor Lex, she is really struggling. Let’s pray for her”. No, I tell you this to say that I asked myself the question over and over “Who is God?” and I still have an answer.

My God is my strength when I have no more to give.

My God is my anchor when the waves are blowing me around.

My God is the whisper at the end of the hard day that it is okay to cry and break because he will hold me together.

My God is the God who gives me peace under all the chaos of the storm so I smile even when I have no idea how I will make it on my own…actually, my God is the one who says I never have to make it on my own.

My God is good at his very nature and in the storm I am tested on if I trust Him or not and the answer is yes whole heartedly.

This storm is different than ones in the past. I used to freak out and fear the future. I used to worry so much I would get sick…but not this time. Yes, I cry when I get overwhelmed…but there is a rock solid foundation of peace that I am standing on. I know who I serve and have seen his very nature from the deserts and plains of Kenya, to the middle of Cambodia’s slums, to the Target down the street. I see that God is good, ALL the time, for that is his nature.

I know my shepherds voice...or pilot...or whatever it is you want to relate to God. 

I share this not to get prayers…though I never turn down prayer…but instead to say that if you are going through a hard season, turn your eyes to Him and to His Word to learn who He is and who holds you. He is FOR YOU. He will NEVER forsake you. He is stronger than anything you come against and He provides better than you can provide for yourself or anyone else can provide for you. 

So trust your pilot today…and if you don’t know who your pilot is, message me and I can tell you about mine. I am always happy to share.