I try really hard to live in the present. I really do and as someone who battles anxiety that is hard for me, but God is able and helps me with this.
Most days I am so thankful and blessed with where I am right now and where God has me. I am exactly where I need to be when I need to be. That is beautiful. That is amazing.
That is also challenging. You see. I'm a wanderer. An adventurer. I was made to travel and experience new things, fight through them, and find God's truth in it.
I love a good adventure and with that I get to blessing to leave my heart in so many places.
But there are days that I miss those pieces.
Today is one of those days.
You see I miss a place currently today that has so many people that changed my life. Missouri. Springfield, Missouri.
Evangel University is a place that challenged me, hurt me, taught me, held me close, and changed my life forever.
I learned so much there, but the majority of it was now in the classroom. It was with people that taught me that community is stronger than stress and pressure.
I had people who prayed for me, laughed with me, cried with me, and did life together.
Those people are still my people. The ones I call or text when I need prayer. The ones who I long to visit soon. The ones who lead me closer to God by leading me closer to community, no matter the distance.
To those girls, thank you. You changed my life and are still changing my life. Every text, letter, call, or FaceTime... Even your Instagram posts. You make me smile.
So today I miss, not so much the place, but the people.
I miss my sisters. My family. The ones God put in my life.
There are days that being away from them makes me worry they don't remember me or care about me anymore, then I get a text. I get a letter. I get a picture of some bows I made for the floor in colors.
Today I miss those pieces of my heart and I'm praying over them. Praying God doesn't let the story end here as we start another year of school so many hours apart. Praying God blesses them for how much they have blessed me & praying that God shows them favor and Grace as they learn new things to help them change the world. For they definitely have changed mine.
Just thought I would share a piece of my heart today. None of this is to say I do not like where I am or what I am doing, because I do. I really really do. Instead this is saying that I'm learning it is okay to think back on all God has done and see that He had a plan, so I can remember that He is faithful and He is good. I can't wait to see what He will do with this beautiful season.
-Lexie
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